good to get a vent out.

I don't know if those of you who have moved continents can agree with this, but moving allows/makes you open your eyes really wide. I think you could see my heart in my eyes right now, they are opened that wide. I understand moving allows you to meet people from all walks of life- richer and poorer, younger and older, more mature and less... and I have experienced all of this in the past month..?... (have I been gone that long?? wow.)

At the risk of using my blog for a vent session tonight...

This adventure is going to get really fun soon. I am so hopeful. It has been more hard than fun so far.
Hard things are normally the best, though (In all my years of wisdom... ha.)

I love Hillsong's heart so much. To build the church. To love people. To enable and equip.

So here might be the vent...

complaining, whining, unsatisfaction, disappointment, disenchantment, self-pity, self-righteousness, the love of attention, having to get your way, talking about yourself all the time... did I mention whining?
Oh I am guilty some of the time (for sure, not pointing fingers) but
I can't seem to get away from it when I am at home, when I am at the church, when I am at the grocery store, when I am by myself...
I like the people I live with now.
I like the people I have lived with before.
I love my friends so much.
I love my family so much.
I love my church.

And then I realize we are all only human.
And we are all learning.
Everyday.
Learning to be different.
Learning how to survive and dream and live and be and act with what God has given us.

And God gives us great grace, but I don't simply want to walk away from this burden and frustration tonight the same. I am learning we can only be responsible for ourselves. We can only have control over our response to situations.

So, I am pondering all I heard today... the constant whining... an engagement ring that needs to be bigger, not making enough money, my hair doesn't look good today, my makeup, my clothes, my body, i am so huuuuuuuuuuuunnnnngry, i am so thiiiiiirrrrrsttty, "well this is what I wants", that is too cheap, this is too much, he isn't cute enough, i don't have any friends, the bus not coming at the right time (this was my complaint), "why can't we do what I want to do's?" (this was also my complaint...) = )

there are people without clean water in this world tonight.



check out this blog to hear about people getting water for the first time...

there are little people who are fighting for their lives with cancer tonight.

I don't know these two families, but through the grapevine, I have happened onto their sites.
LETS PRAY FOR HEALING!

pray for kate

pray for daisy

there are people, who literally don't know the next time they will eat in this world tonight.
there are little people who are becoming victims of human trafficking tonight.

So, I am still pondering...
Oh if we could look beyond ourself and realize...
Without justice there is no worship. they work together.
You cannot have one without the other.


I don't deserve to whine and complain. (sorry mom and daddy for all the many many many years...)
And whoever you are, reading this tonight, You don't either.

Because, lets be honest---lets just pray, lets just give of our time, lets be generous, lets be doers and not only hearers, lets work together for justice, lets realize how blessed we are, lets speak those things out regularly, lets be grateful, lets thank God.

And lets stop the whining.
Ok, thanks.

Ending vent.

Guys what is the next step in this ponder? Ideas are being accepted!